Posts Tagged ‘sadness’

My Morning Run

It felt great getting back out there!  It felt like the first time in a week that I’ve been able to clear my head, get lost in something, and just focus on something other than money or my poor boy Kane.  It was also the last time that my run will not involve me leaving my house and seeing Kane in his little corner, unable to walk, and knowing he can’t go running with ever again.  No doubt for the next few weeks my run will begin with a bit of sadness as that realization repeatedly strikes me each time I walk out the door.  I am also pretty sure he won’t enjoy it either since he loved our runs so much.  Mostly he loved picking fights with the neighborhood dogs along the way.  I can say one thing though, when he was running with me the neighborhood dogs didn’t try to sniff at my heels- he took care of that.  I will miss his company on my runs. I guess Lucius will have to start running with me, but if Kane sees that he will be REALLY angry.  (more…)

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As all of you know I’ve dealt with some pretty difficult problems ever since this Sunday.  Between my beloved dog going from fully mobile to paralyzed in a matter of a few minutes to a major car repair in progress, this week hasn’t been easy on my head, my heart, or my wallet. [For those want more info: my car in the shop for a pretty major repair: heater core replacement].  Dealing with these issues really knocked me off my game so to speak.

We spent Sunday night at the Animal hospital until a half hour pas midnight- none of us has fully recovered from the combination of stress and a lack of sleep.  I probably could have started working out again on Monday but I am still carrying a feeling I can’t fully describe.  It feels like my head is in a dense fog and I just can’t seem to walk through it and find a sunny sky (or even a cloudy one that is at least cloud free).

It was just today that I confronted the question, how do I get out of this funk? (more…)