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It has come to this.  The metaphorical tornado that is my life swept through over the last couple of months and now I have to assess the damage caused by stress, apathy, inactivity, distraction, and gluttony.  I hate doing this, always have, but it is essential to starting over.  It’s hard to climb out of the hole when you don’t know how far down you are (not to mention which way is up).   It would be far easier to sulk and stew where I am, ignore the depths to which I’ve descended, and find comfort in a blissful ignorance of my current condition.  After all, if I am unaware of how much I weigh now or how many inches I’ve added to my waist then I can’t have any depressing thoughts about how much ground I’ve lost over the last few months.  Well, I can have those thoughts, but as long as they aren’t confirmed by the scale and the tape, I can push them to the side and ignore them with much more ease.

No longer though.  This morning I braved the tape and the scale.  The knowledge I gained wasn’t pretty, but it was essential.  I have returned to a 37 inch waist and about 188.5 lbs.  This is still far better than the 209 or so lbs I started out at, but a far cry from my best weight of 166 lbs.  I did some chin-ups only to find I lost some, but luckily not a lot, of my upper body strength (down from 7 chin-ups to about 4).

But my workout for today isn’t going to be fun, nor will it be easy.  I designed it to be part fitness assessment, part penance for my previous apathy.  Perhaps it will be a cathartic exercise (pun intended).   (more…)

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Today my wife and daughter got a chance to go visit Kane at the hospital- I am quite jealous.  Judging by the pictures all three of them had a lot of fun.

My wife got to meet Kane’s doctors- who are by the way totally awesome!  You couldn’t imagine kinder, more knowledgeable, nicer, more considerate and patient doctors than the three doctors (one is a professor and the other two are residents).

They were even nice enough to answer my question about whether life in a vet hospital is anything like Scrubs.  Their answer.  It is more like Scrubs than Grey’s Anatomy.

Well without further adieu, here are tow videos of Sasha and Kane playing around.  Well mostly it is her playing around and Kane tolerating her.

And this…

I know, I know, that is probably too much cuteness to handle at one time so take a second, take a deep breath and click the read more bottom… (more…)

As all of you know I’ve dealt with some pretty difficult problems ever since this Sunday.  Between my beloved dog going from fully mobile to paralyzed in a matter of a few minutes to a major car repair in progress, this week hasn’t been easy on my head, my heart, or my wallet. [For those want more info: my car in the shop for a pretty major repair: heater core replacement].  Dealing with these issues really knocked me off my game so to speak.

We spent Sunday night at the Animal hospital until a half hour pas midnight- none of us has fully recovered from the combination of stress and a lack of sleep.  I probably could have started working out again on Monday but I am still carrying a feeling I can’t fully describe.  It feels like my head is in a dense fog and I just can’t seem to walk through it and find a sunny sky (or even a cloudy one that is at least cloud free).

It was just today that I confronted the question, how do I get out of this funk? (more…)

We made our first trip to the hospital today.  We discussed the issue of our payment plan, received the unfortunate news that it appeared we might not be able to get any grants to cover the surgery (keep praying about this), and we paid off part of the bill.  [BTW: If you do want to help defray some of the costs of Kane’s surgery just click this sentence.]

On a more positive note we saw Kane for about an hour.  We walked outside with Kane and the doctors and learned how to help him pee by squeezing on his bladder- fun times.  We saw some improvement in him placing a small amount of weight on his hind legs- YEAH!

Then we went into a comfy visiting room where Sasha prayed for Kane and we hung out together for a while.  Here are some of the pictures and video from our visit.

How about the cutest thing first?  Here is a video of Sasha and Kane together- sorry for the no sound, our digital cam stinks.

Next, the surgery scars

I told him that he was lucky in a way since chicks dig scars. (more…)

That is Kane, the black and tan one in the background hamming it up.

Surgery is complete.  Is wasn’t perfect since he did have some spinal degeneration and fusing consistent with his age.  However, the vet was able to remove the flap of bone that was causing his spinal cord to bulge.  His spinal cord is now running straight as an arrow.

Now we are waiting to see if he can fell pain tomorrow.  Even better if he can move his legs tomorrow.  I will take a trip into town tomorrow to meet with his neurologist and of course visit the billing department.  I hate to say this again, but since this wasn’t cheap, if you feel you can afford to help and feel led that way we sure could use the assistance.  We would love to get together about $1,000 from donations if possible. We are also looking into grants and charitable organizations, but have found nothing thus far that will work.

Please keep praying about those grants and also pray that Kane will not only feel pain tomorrow but that he shows signs of movement and control in his hind limbs.  Thanks to everyone!

First, thank you ALL for your prayers and kind comments over the last two days.  You have helped us immensely, and your thoughts and prayers have been a greater blessing than we could ever hope to thank you for.  But I must say the words that can’t possibly repay you, THANK YOU.  If only I could give each and everyone of you a big hug.

Since Kane’s care doesn’t come cheap, and some have already asked if they could help out with a small donation, I decided to post a link here for those who want to provide some financial assistance for Kane’s care.  If you want to help us pay for Kane’s treatment (MRI, surgery, etc.) please click on the link below which will take you to PayPal.

Help us Pay for Kane’s Treatment

FYI: Current estimates for Kane’s care are $2,000 to $2,500 for his diagnostic treatments (x-rays, blood tests, MRI, exams, etc.) and, these numbers aren’t solid since the diagnostics won’t be completed until tomorrow, about $2,000 to $3,500 for surgery- depending on what he needs.  We will know much more by tomorrow when he has his MRI, but the doctors think it is best to take him straight from his MRI to surgery- if it is required- since it is best to only put him under anesthesia once.

If you want to cut out the PayPal middle man (or you simply don’t have a PayPal account) just email totaltransformation@yahoo.com and I will gladly give you an address where you can send a check or money order.  I appreciate all your help- and our whole family thanks you for your prayers and donations.  Keep in mind that since I am NOT a 501(c)3 organization your donations are NOT tax deductible- even if they are enormously appreciated.

A page from out adoption photo album. It features Kane and Lucius.

UPDATE: Kane is going for his MRI at 2:40 p.m. and will have his surgery immediately afterward if it is required.  The spot on his lung turned out to be nothing and his blood work looked great.  Praise God!

The problem with running is really quite simple, the mind wants to give in before the body. (more…)